1. inertness, esp. with regard to effort, motion, action, and the like; inactivity; sluggishness
2. the property of matter by which it retains its state of rest or its velocity along a straight line so long as it is not acted upon by an external force
Clearly it has been a while. And I had such high hopes for the summer with regard to so many things: vacation, blogging, running, yoga, etc.
And in some cases, life did not disappoint.
| from the plane on our way to the |
Cayman Islands (my first trip--thanks mom- and dad-in-law)!!
|The view from our condo patio . . . |
I mean COME ON! This trip was a real winner.
But other things have certainly taken a back seat since May in my life.
- I miss practicing yoga every day . . . I can't believe January actually happened and I am trying to figure out how to get back on track. With at least 4-5 classes a week.
- I wrote in June about starting my training for the fall . . . and then promptly took another four weeks off from running.
- I imagined, at a minimum, bi-weekly blog posts this summer about training accomplishments, challenges, and maybe a few fun Summer in the City activities with my pals . . . instead I haven't been on line in two months.
And let me tell you, getting back on track is really tough. Once I stopped moving, it became really hard to start again.
So here I sit, 7 weeks from my first fall marathon, and I've yet to run anything longer than the half marathon distance since May.
A few weeks ago I made the decision that I would wait and see how training went before committing to which marathon I would race this fall and which ones I would frolic (originally the plan was to race Wineglass and frolic NYC/Rehoboth). At this point, it is clear that I am not going to be in PR shape by Wineglass, and maybe not even NYC. But, there is always Rehoboth, right?
So now the question is, do I use actual marathons as training runs? My pal Laura seems to do just fine running lots of races and she can still throw down a PR with the high volume. And I do love the energy and spirit of race day. And road tripping with Fiona will be a blast!
There is also a tiny part of me that thinks maybe, even if I don't train hard, I will just show up and bust out that 3:xx:xx marathon (this is the same evil me that encourages sleeping in on weekends instead of getting up and running long). For you beginners reading this--do NOT listen to this tiny little me. She is a liar. And yet, I can't get her to shut up!
I'm also battling the flip side of that coin, which is to say, I am starting to let the voices of doubt get louder.
"I was never an athlete"
"There is no way I'll ever run sub-four"
"Who am I kidding with all of this ultrarunning nonsense"
"I should just give up"
I think a lot of this is because after running 5 marathon PRs in a row, I didn't do it again in Vermont. And it really bummed me out (even though i knew I was under-trained and completely cashed from too many miles last spring). I will also admit (which I haven't out loud until right now) that it was hard to watch someone I train with a lot, and with more miles on her legs, rock a significant PR and get that sub-4:00 I so desperately wanted this past season--you are my current running rock star BTW--and I know you know who you are.
In the end, if I am going keep my schedule as is, I need to get some mileage on my legs. Safely but quickly. And in order to do that, I need to get out of this training funk. That is to say, find a way to get started so I can actually enjoy training again. I need to figure out what my 'external force' actually is. Or I am going to be stuck sitting on the track not going anywhere.
So, for this week, birthday week,(yay for Margaritas on Friday!!), I am going to spend some time with myself thinking about why I want to run. Is it intrinsic or extrinsic? Is it for the PR? Is it about the people? Is it for my own health? I have a lot of questions to answer.
Perhaps you'll answer two for me? Why do you run? And why do you race?